Excuses

I don't understand, why can't they themselves access to the world wide web and reply to emails. If things are so urgent, why didn't they brief me before they go. All they did was talk about the weather there, the hotel they're staying, and the shopping. I don't understand. And here they all, smsing me every now & then, instructing me to do this and that. It's a waste of time and things are screwing up. Stocks are not arriving from the right places and no one is following thru with HQ and yes.. I am super pissed. Not to mention, tired.

Want me to write directly to HQ, then keep asking me to ask from them politely. When did I ever ask abruptly and rudely? When I write to them bowing my head down to them, who is going to give a f*cK about me? That's why blood is boiling inside me. Everyone replied me, like I deserve that kinda attitude, like what ever I did/asked was wrong (not to mention, those are instructions from all my boss!!!!)

3 days they were gone, only Thomas with his blackberry is able to access to emails. The rest are internet-disable!? Then why they brought their laptops with them? to play games? isn't there internet cafes? isn't there hotel internet access? Arghh.. somemore HQ is in the same time zone as them. And they're unable to communicate with them, unless thru me, who have no f*cuking idea what's going on!

Argh.. I am so pissed.. May the sky rain. Revive me!!!

why am I so piss-able recently?

Recently when I talk to her, my being will feel uneasy, and I just feel like !#!$@$@#$@$&*%.. Don't ask me why. Maybe because of her attitude.. what's the big f**k.

urgh...

Exploding Tummy

I finally have some peace & quiet to update my blog. And I conclude that there is something wrong with my computer at home. I seriously couldn’t post anything at home. It was terrible, and that was what contribute to my previous blog failures. And plus I had typed a whole chunk of things on Sunday evening and it’s all down the drain. @!$!$!@#$!@!#!%^#

Monday went by smoothly with so many things to do, because 1 thing, Lisa was not around to handle a lot of things, thus, as her assistant, I need to call this person, email that person, do this and undo that. But time passes very fast, which is something I am glad of. And now it’s the 2nd half of Tuesday and soon, the wonderful weekend will come.

I am starving right now, and I have no idea whether anyone will be lunching with me, because if my ex-lunch khaki (Alethea) had resigned like 2 mths ago. And I am left with inconsistent lunching-mates, who depends on their availability to makan with me. Nonetheless, I still at times enjoy to eat alone, to make plans to shop here and eat there. But sometimes, I felt so miserable, having to walk down orchard road, feeling lonely and hungry. But have no freaking idea where to head. Aiyea.. I just wish that I find some consistent lunch mates soon. Maybe I am too anti-social. Don’t know why, I can be really quiet at times, when I am with people whom I don’t really know or when I just have nothing to contribute to the crowd. It feels intimidating, and I dampens my mood and confidence. Even when I try to speak up, my voice/tone will tremble and break. And then I just close my mouth for good. How I wish I can be like someone who can speak their mind and who do not need to think phrase the conversation in the brain for 5 secs before speaking. Yes, I am someone like that. I am slow to think and afraid to say and pronounce wrongly. I am just a idiot.

Ok.. shall go with Lynn for lunch now. Lucky she called me. Be back ltr to continue..

I am back! Had pepperlunch @ shaw, fulfilling… hee.. Shall head back to my excel reports and emails.